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Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Cambio casa

 Impossible Dreamer cambia nome e indirizzo.

 Chi ha piacere a leggermi penso possa trovarmi facilmente.

 Love
 Lexi

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Tuesday, September 06, 2005
The beginning of the end

 Now, it's plain to see that if Americans had not voted for Bush, this stuffy but democratic lady called Katrina would have changed direction, hitting Cuba or Venezuela. Places more accustomed to being humiliated than the American Empire.

 It's useless to think about it now. Anyway, I was so excited when I heard that the democratic champ Sean Penn would have personally taken care of the population of the Louisiana, proving once more that President Bush is a conceited ass.

 So, Brave Penn loaded his boat with rice and biscuits, antibiotics and blankets, and greeted his fans waving the handkerchief... But no!, goddam...as soon as he weighed anchor, plouf!, his boat has begun taking on water and he miserably started to sink.

 Happily enough the tragedy occurred at a spit distance from the river bank, so the presence of the National Guard has not become necessary, otherwise this valiant democratic actor would surely be drowned or greedily chewed by some ravenous republican cayman.

 Unfortunately this means that syphilitic faggot known as Zarqawi is right when he says it is the beginning of the end for America, if ultra-democratic Penn fails too.

 What a sorry existence. We can only get on Hanoi Jane's bus and cross the Mexican borderline. There we'll sail off to Cuba where doctors are cheap and children only ask two dollars for a good fuck.

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(thanks again Feisty)
 

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Sunday, September 04, 2005
Dry Sex

 Let's talk about an horrible custom called dry sex. Even though it's hardly ever spoken about, dry sex is widely practised by African women, in South Africa, Zimbabwe, Zambia, Malawi.

 Girls insert harmful chemicals and cleaners (methylated spirits, antiseptics, coarse salt, bicarbonate of soda, snuff, vinegar, talcum powder, ice, alum, Zam-Buk, soil mixed with baboon urine, household detergents and bleach and even shredded newspapers) into their cervix in order to suck up or stop themselves from producing natural moisture within the vagina.

 The effect is a dry and tight vagina, which feels better for their men. The concept is supported by the mindset that girls who get wet (which is absolutely natural for women when sexually aroused) are whores. Both men and women see wetness as a sign of promiscuity and dirt. For this reason men don't practise oral sex to their women. Girls who are "too wet" are called chambeshi (the name of large river Zambezi).

 This kind of nonsense is taught to young girls and accepted within the culture, making them think their natural bodily functions are horrible, wrong and unnatural. So, many girls practise these harmful behaviors to please the social gender standards set up by the men in their society.

 Dry sex is painful too. The chemicals used actually strip the woman's genitals of all natural lubrificants, making the soft tissues swell and causing her vagina to become hot and tight. It makes sexual intercourse abrasive and painful for women, causing abdominal and vaginal pain, burning and itching, rashes and bleeding, making it almost unbereable to do every day activities. The absurd thing is that the use of vaseline as a lubrificant is considered acceptable because it's not the natural juice of a woman. Vaseline is clean, the partner isn't.

 Also prostitutes practise dry sex, because their clients prefer it and also because it makes them ejaculate faster.
 Long-terms effects are even worse. Dry sex is thought to help spread AIDS. The dryness of the vagina means it's more likely to be lacerated during sex, the natural antiseptic bacilli contained in the vaginal moisture are destroyed and condoms break easier because of the increased friction. Practices like dry sex are probably responsable for the fact that South Africa has the highest heterosexual AIDS-infection rate in the world.

 This is a pretty disgusting custom. My vag hurts thinking about it. I'm glad to live in a country where my vagina is not mutilated, infibulated, bleached, dried up or naturally considered whorish.


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Friday, September 02, 2005
A night in Baja California


 Warily, I took another step. The aged wooden boards of the boardwalk stooped under our weight. The effects of time, sea salt, and pressure had largely succeeded in defeating the boards’ sturdiness. As I stepped onto the sand, a bounty of thoughts came to me when I looked ahead. At last, I could see all around, the view free to be taken.

 A vast shore stood before us illuminated by the ghostly radiance of the white sand of the beach in the pallid moonlight. We strolled onward, the gentle texture of our hands joined together by our fingertips. With each footstep my feet sank deeply, and the sand filled the small crevices between my toes. The grainy feel of the sand surged in me a delightful sensation of being tickled. Momentarily grasping her hand tightly, feeling the give of hers to mine, I stopped. Hesitating momentarily then placing my left hand on her shoulder, I bent downward and removed my left shoe. Alternating positions I removed the other, a matte, black thick-heeled shoe.

 Shoes in hand, I righted myself upright and looked for a moment at her eyes. Without hesitation she met my stare, those eyes did not betray her feelings as she reached for my waist. My eyes drifted downward and fixated on her hand, drawing closer with each instant. Slowly my eyelashes met and the light of the world darkened to me, what, what indeed would it feel like to be held by her? Visions flooded my mind, the sensations primal in origin.

 Yet before she could make contact the spell broke for a moment, a moment that found me releasing my shoes and breaking into a run. Smiling with the whimsical heart of a pixie, I momentarily glanced back and saw her in hot pursuit. The chase, oh the chase, but it was never a dash, for escape was never my intention. The clinging fit of the indigo jeans , jeans of dark midnight blue fabric sparkling with rhinestones, made my strides less limber but I did not stop. Opening my mouth to the thick night air doused with the ocean mist did I gasp. Gasping for a breath, breath that nurtured my heart but more so the sense, the powerful joy of anticipation.

 Flaring my arms steadily did I soon feel my feet sinking slightly into what was now soft wet sand. Not content to stop I continued into the surf, splashing frantically, the foamy white of the water encompassing the length of my legs. The soothingly warm water held me, caressed my every inch of skin and transformed a run into a slow walk. A walk then became a standstill as I stopped entirely, entirely sensing the pounding of my temples and the powerful beat of my heart against my breast.

 Taking on the form of a magical skin, the crimson tank top clung to my frame as I turned. Turning with great deliberation, with unending haste, with eternal patience, with endless want did I see her approaching. The sapphire outline of her eyes dazzled my sight as she neared, the heaviness of her breathing coating my ears with a song. A pull, an ancient attraction brought us closer, the water shimmering with our every movement. Movements that brought our hands, hands made even softer by the water, together at last.

 I gasped as the distinct feel of her hips against mine sent daggers, sharp and sensual daggers through all of me. Razor tips that cut my skin leaving me bleeding uncontrollably with wanton desire. My hands enveloped her neck, the smooth skin yielding ever so slightly to the supple tips of my fingers. Sighing but not sighing, with the whisper of a playful hiss did I wrap one of my legs around her waist. With the grace of a lithe dancer did her hand find the small of my back, oval tips of nails brushing the skin beneath my shirt. Another hand, free, free to venture and discover would hold the back of my thigh against her, bringing us ever more near.

 Mesmerized by the intoxicatingly subtle scent of vanilla on her skin, with her elegant eyebrows, with how her raven-hued hair falls on her slender shoulders, and her full lips stained in a vivid shade of scarlet. A lifetime did I gaze into those hypnotic eyes, brimming over with rapture. Time stood still, a stillness of the night that made my eyes close, closed to light yet open to fire, blistering flames that blazed upon her lips and kissed mine. A kiss that ended my life yet gave me life anew, born and reborn in that kiss I rose as the phoenix. The union of two flames becoming one steady fire, emanating wave and wave of searing delight.

 That night, under the watchful eyes of Orion in a remote beach in Baja California we danced, danced a dance like no other, colored with grace and sensuality, but more than all else, with the passion of two spirits intertwined as one.

¥

(Thank you Feisty for all the kind words you said) 


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A better world somewhere

 Fats Domino who was missing after Katrina devastated New Orleans was photographed being brought to safety by a boat. His daughter recognized him on a pic taken by a local newspaper.

 No news about great Irma Thomas. She's still missing. Her club, the Lion's Den, is underwater. Let's hope she's o.k.

IRMA THOMAS: There Must Be A Better World Somewhere (MP3)


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Thursday, September 01, 2005
Un pagano week-end tra i monti


Ashley, Diana and Lexi(click to enlarge)
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 Quando arrivo al CRG e Laila mi mostra i dintorni del luogo in cui passerò l'ultimo fine-settimana d'agosto, la prima sensazione è di essere stata catapultata nel mitico regno delle Amazzoni.

 Sono consapevole di trovarmi in uno dei più esclusivi punti di ritrovo per lesbiche della California del Sud, però lo scenario e gli atteggiamenti non hanno nulla a che vedere con i soliti lesbian bars di Santa Monica o Van Nuys. La scena che mi si presenta ha un qualcosa di arcaico e così fuori dal tempo che la mia mente non può fare a meno di pensare alle pagine di Erodoto dedicate al "mitologico" popolo delle donne.

 Tra i sentieri e la pineta ci sono ragazze intente al tiro con l'arco, ragazze che intrecciano cestini e ragazze che decorano ceramiche, ragazze che dipingono e ragazze che cavalcano nel recinto, ragazze che passeggiano mano nella mano e ragazze che si fanno dondolare insieme sull'amaca parlandosi a bassa voce.

 E' un quadro sognante ma decisamente reale. Ci si arriva in meno di due ore da Los Angeles, viaggiando verso sud, verso le montagne che al di là del confine la gente chiama Sierra Juarez.

 Laila gestisce insieme alla sua compagna, Peggy, questa comunità discreta nascosta tra i monti. Le capanne e i bungalows sparsi nel bosco sono accoglienti. Ogni capanna ospita tre ragazze e, a meno che non si venga qui con un'amica, ci si ritrova a passare tre giorni con qualcuna mai vista prima. Le mie nuove compagne sono Ashley, una morettina di San Diego, e Diana, una ragazza venuta qui dall'Arizona e intenzionata a fermarsi.

 Ci sono capanne più grandi dove ci si riunisce per cucinare, mangiare, ci sono sale giochi, sale per il corso di meditazione e yoga (da me schivato con grande cura poiché difficilmente riesco a non ridere per più di cinque minuti), sale dove s'imparano lavori manuali e una sala biblioteca, con libri del cazzo ma dove si può stare in silenzio a scrivere o a lavorare al computer. E naturalmente ci sono luoghi più riparati e discreti per chi vuole appartarsi per un po' d'intimità.

 Niente di orgiastico o forzato. Quasi tutte le ragazze che vengono qui non si conoscono da prima. Alcune poi ritornano e possono nascere storie d'amore o incontri di sesso, ma resta soprattutto un modo di condividere in armonia le proprie esperienze con altre ragazze.

 Per chi vuole c'è la possibilità di vivere un rapporto con il corpo in assoluta naturalezza. Appena fa buio ci si immerge nelle grandi vasche rotonde all'aperto. 10-15 ragazze per ogni vasca. Ci si abbraccia ridendo, forse un po' nervose all'inizio, ma l'acqua riscaldata e il riflesso delle stelle creano subito un'atmosfera piacevole che tutte noi percepiamo.

 


 Quando rientriamo nella sala comune il fuoco è già acceso. Ci si asciuga insieme, si confrontano tatuaggi e piercings, rivelandone i significati personali, ci si racconta, in una vicinanza che è fisica, corporea, ma anche spirituale. E' come se la mia nudità si perdesse per fondersi in quell'insieme meraviglioso di corpi, resi dorati dalla luce delle fiamme. Una sensazione assoluta di libertà.

 E' con questa sensazione ancora in testa che la mattina dopo, nel più puro rito pagano, andiamo a bagnarci alla cascata, come Oreadi dei monti, improvvisando danze e urla per esorcizzare il gelo dell'acqua e vincerne la sfida.

 E' stata un'esperienza diversa. Nell'andarmene accetto l'invito di Ashley ad accompagnarla fino a San Diego per poi concederci una puntata a Tijuana. 
 Ci sono profumi, colori e, nell'aria, un senso di gioiosa attesa.


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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Time


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 Time does not exist. Physics can't prove its existence, we can't see, taste, hear, or touch it. Human beings can't comprehend it slowing down or speeding up. Things happen at their own pace.

 We can only experience existence in a linear fashion. Our minds move from one static universe to another in one direction. We can't process this experience in total. So, our consciousness orders this journey through individual 'nows' for us, and we comprehend this as the passage of time.

 Our minds apply an understandable frame to the progression of our consciousness. Time was created to keep from experiencing the universe all at once.

 We see the passing of time. We see motion. We accept this as proof. But really, we are just arrangements of matter. Clocks don't detect time, they only measure the movement of their own hands.
The usual notions of time and space break down with the big bang theory. We need a timeless description of the beginning of the universe. If time was useless in the beginning, shouldn't it be useless now?

 Supposedly, when one reaches the speed of light, time slows down. If we were to jump into a black hole, those observing us would see time stop completely, as if we were floating above the event horizon. But time would feel normal to us, and we would feel ourselves fall into it.

 Time is measured by our hearts, too. Mice have rapid heartbeats. These creatures die well before humans do. However, since their hearts beat so fast, they feel as if they have lived long lives, just as humans do when they die of old age. More proof that time exists only in our minds.

 St. Augustine said that only 'now' exists. Past and future exist in our present, and time is subjective.

That's my crazy rant for the evening.

(Guess I must stop with all this drinking.
Nothing else is up. Hah).

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Neil Young and John Hiatt

 Here you can download:

 NEIL YOUNG: The Painter (from his forthcoming album. Prairie Wind will be out on September 27)

 JOHN HIATT: When My Love Crosses Over (from his new album Master Of Disaster. A soulful ballad in purest Neil Young style).

The links will expire in 7 days and will be available for a limited number of downloads.


NEIL YOUNG: The Painter

The painter stood before her work
She looked around everywhere
She saw the pictures and she painted them
She picked the colors from the air

Green to green, red to red
Yellow to yellow in the light
Black to black when the evening comes
Blue to blue in the night

Its a long road behind me
Its a long road ahead
If you follow every dream
You might get lost
If you follow every dream
You might get lost

She toed the line, she held her end up
She did the work of two men
But in the end she fell down
Before she got up again

I keep my friends eternally
We leave our tracks in the South
Some of them are with me now
Some of them can't be found

Its a long road behind me
And I miss you now
If you follow every dream
You might get lost
If you follow every dream
You might get lost

 JOHN HIATT: When My Love Crosses Over

We made a pact lying there on our backs
Swearing to every star that the sky did hold
Promising our love was true, promising to see it through
Then we headed due Southwest across the Muscle Shoals

We slid down a riverbank in the pouring rain giving thanks
For the strength just to carry on through the fog and the cold
There at the water's edge she tugged my arm and I nodded my head
Just one more step and that river took a hold

When my love crosses over I'm coming over too
To cross that mighty river that's before us
To the new western world mountains high and plain unfurled
Desert stretching out to touch the Californias

We said we'd never look back, we never have and that's a fact
That Mississippi washed us clean down to the bone
The journey's been long my friend, hell, you never know what state you're in
Yeah, but the unknown it's always the unknown

When my love crosses over I'm coming over too
To cross that mighty river that's before us
To the new western world mountains high and plain unfurled
Desert stretching out to touch the Californias

I lost track of you a while but you were waiting for me with a smile
Made me feel like a little child with a brand new view
Let's do it all over babe, it'd just be another trip we made
When my love crosses over I'm coming too

 


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Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Grillo stracciato da John Doe

 Ben gli sta a quel Lenny Bruce al pesto che risponde al nome di Beppe Grillo. Dev'essere deprimente accorgersi che, pur essendo un'icona della sinistra salottiera e modaiola, il suo blog - molto linkato, super-trendy e oh-so-glamorous - non influenza più di quello di una tredicenne brufolosa tutta sospiri e cuoricini. Tanto da vedersi costretto a comprare una pagina del Corriere della Sera se vuole sperare di avere un seguito nell'iniziativa che gli sta a cuore.

 Come tutti i sinistri salottieri del suo rango, Grillo è uno che quando parla degli Stati Uniti ricorre al solito trito repertorio di frasi prestampate.

 Può quindi essere interessante far sapere che in quest'America così poco democratica e chiaramente proiettata verso un futuro di stampo nazista, talvolta anche il semplice blog di un John Doe qualunque può direzionare interessi molto vasti.

 Senza ricorrere all'esempio di bloggers che hanno smascherato bufale a sfondo politico, determinando il licenziamento di importanti esponenti dell'informazione tradizionale, mi limito a ricordare un clamoroso caso di un paio d'anni fa, quando la Dr.Pepper-7Up pensò di legare il lancio di una sua nuova bevanda al mondo dei blogs, inviando bottigliette e lattine ai redattori dei blogs più seguiti e più letti.

 L'idea dei creativi della Dr.Pepper era che i lettori dei blogs potessero rappresentare un'immagine più autentica, più grass-roots, dei mainstream-media. La bevanda, chiamata Raging Cow, era un beverone a base di latte aromatizzato con cinque gusti differenti. Pur non avendola mai assaggiata direi a naso che si trattava di una schifezza inaudita. E questo fu quanto scrissero i bloggers che ne avevano ricevuto uno stock, dando inizio ad una vera e propria campagna di boicottaggio mediatico, col risultato che la bevanda sparì prima ancora di farsi conoscere.

 Il caso della Raging Cow scatenò un dibattito sull'opportunità, da parte delle aziende, di affidarsi ad una forma di comunicazione così immediata e dirompente ma anche totalmente priva di controlli. Tuttavia il mondo dei blogs, qui, resta una prospettiva che ingolosisce chi fa del marketing la propria ragione di vita. Riuscire ad accaparrarsi quei settori di teenagers, di twenty e thirtysomething che nella comunità dei blogs direzionano i gusti dei loro lettori con reciproci scambi di opinione su politica, musica, cinema, prodotti tecnologici e di consumo vario, rappresenta una grossa fetta di facile guadagno per chi investe nella pubblicità.

 E' un fatto che negli Stati Uniti, a parte l'episodio Raging Cow, il mercato pubblicitario su internet ha registrato un'impennata, aumentando del 35% e creando una sensazione di ottimismo intorno alla potenzialità dei blogs. Questa potenzialità commerciale viene chiamata word-of-mouth enabler oppure, in maniera più colorita, viral marketing. Come a dire che un prodotto può incontrare successo grazie ad una serie di passaparola mediatici che si espandono come un virus nella rete e, di conseguenza, nel mercato reale.

 Come si dice da queste parti, blogs have legs (and crickets don't sing)..


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Monday, August 29, 2005
"Negate il visto anche a Prodi, stronzi!"

 "Come portavoce di Campo Antimperialista ci tengo a far sapere che non ce ne frega un cazzo se il fascista Fini servo di Bush e Berlusconi ha negato il visto d'ingresso ai quattro eroici resistenti iracheni.

 Intanto abbiamo già trovato un sostituto che non li farà rimpiangere per la nostra conferenza "Lasciamo in pace l'Iraq. Sosteniamo la legittima resistenza del popolo iracheno". Uno che, come noi, vuole cacciare al più presto le truppe d'occupazione italiane e americane dal suolo iracheno...E vogliamo proprio vedere come faranno gli imperialisti yankee e i loro 44 Congressmen del cazzo a negare il visto a Romano Prodi..."

  ("E se volete un'informazione che non sia inquinata dal neonazismo a stelle e strisce e dall'estremismo occidentalista e imperialista, leggete qui, cazzoni neocon servi di Bush e pieni di merda, come dice Mick Jagger").



Sweet Neocon Condi indica
la dimensione...politica di Prodi
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